Peer Pressure&Stuff.

So. Have you ever felt like you needed to prove yoself to be able to be friends with someone&if you are not into the shit they do, they make fun of you&judge you? ME TOOO! Haha, well I get now that she did not mean to&once again I freaked out for no reason. But still. Sometimes I just want to get drunk or stoned or fuck someone, or maybe all three at once, just to shut everyone up. I want people to not judge me on what I do or don't do for that matter&actually have their opinion based on me as a person. Peer Pressure sucks. It is something I try not to succumb to&I have not yet. So.. WOOHOOO! for mee. Maybe one of these days I will blog about something not as deep&boring. Lmao. Haha. Well, this was not as long as I thought it was going to be. So I will now blog about stuff that has nothing to do with peer pressure, so hence my title is a lie. So I will change it. It was changed from Peer Pressure... to Peer Pressure&Stuff. Hurr comes the stuff portion...
So today, I woke up late&then went&got pizza. Then I pretty much chilled for the rest of the day. Thurr was a new Hell's Kitchen which was AWESOME. Haha,&I was on the the phone with my dad before&my ma and me were arguing about something. So, I said 'suck my dick'&my dad goes "Amanda, youre on speeaker phone&everyone at the dealership just heard you". So I apologized to them. My dad's a CAR dealer, NOT a drug dealer. So, my mom goes "Why the hell would you have her on speakphone of all people?" Hahah, it was prettty funny. If you didn't laugh, just give me a pity laugh right about..... NOW! Haha. So in the past few days I have watched like 129032193 movies, well not really, but a lot. I saw Shutter, that was pretty good, confusing, but good. Then I saw Don't Say A Word&that was actually really good. So thumbs up to that one. :] Then I saw Burn After Reading&that I did not finish because as soon as Bard Pitt got shot in the head outta no where I said screw this&turned it off. Even tho he did deserve it for cheating on Jenn with Angelina. I HATE ANGELINA& I also hate Kate Winslet, which brings me to my next movie, Revolutionary Road. Haha, so SPOILER ALERT! Kate's character dies at the end of the movie&I felt like justice was served because Leonardo DiCaprio, who I am in love with, is also in the movie, yeah like how they did Titanic together. So justice was served because in Titanic as you all know, Jack dies. Jack is Leo's character. So anyway Kate's character, Rose, lives. So the table were now turned&Kate died this time&I was pretty happy about that. I think that is all the movies I watched. Haha, so I think I am done now. :]

--Mandak, the goodie goodie. :]

My Cat.

Okay, so about 5 seconds ago, I was singing&doing a mighty fine job of it if I do say so myself, but if you ask my cat, he would beg to differ. As I am singing, he decides to give me dirty looks every five seconds&tried climbing up on the chair I am in like three times. He looked pretty scared during some of my high notes, but I like to think he was blown away by my amazing skills. So anyway, I got fed up&looked at him&told him that if he did not appreciate my singing he could go upstairs to which he hissed at me. Yesh, he hissed at me! Yah see, my cat never ever hisses, unless you do something tre tre bad to him, so I was flipping scared. So I proceeded to stand on my chair&scream for help because I am a chicken&thought he was going to claw off my face. He didn't. So, my mom&sister come down. They were on the cats side. Theyre not big fans of my voice either, I like to think theyre jealous. My ma was all like, "Amanda, what did you do to the cat, he never hissses."&my sister so kindly put the cat on me when I was not looking&proceeded to chase me with the cat as I screamed&ran away. So I am now terrified of my cat. I think he may kill me in my sleep tonight. I really really hope not. So today, I hung out with Jaimie Shanay. Shes amazing. We basically did nothing. Haha, we ate&watched tevee. OH!&we also played Jeopardy, which I am also beast at. I am just beast at life. I hope you all know that I am veryy sarcastic&I am not really this self-centered. :] But do you want to know who is really beastt............ ALYSSA LAURENN. Shes ahmazing at life&I love her. :]] <333

--Mandak, Alyssa's #1 fan. :]

Friendship.

So I am doing two of my fave things right now. Listening to my new Demi Lovato CD&eating blueberries. Theyre my addiction. Some people are addicted to drugs, such as heroine&pot, but not me. Im addicted to blueberries, which are much better for you than drugs, so HA! Next time, you have the need for a buzz, eat a blueberry(unless youre allergic). Lmao, whos allergic to blueberries. My friend, Shanany, is convinced she is allergic to cheesecake. She throws up every single time she eats it. So she says. Tonight, was pretty interesting. Let me fill you all in. So, my friend&I have been fighting for the past three nights&tonight we finally had it. As of right now, we are no longer friends. A girl I have known since I was five&grew up is now gone because I am an idiot. I am pretty good at ruining great things in my life. I overreact&then feel like a total idiot about what I just did. Thats what happened today. Now, I am not completely at fault for this. I may have been a bit bitchy about the whole Matt thing&blown it out of proportion, but she betrayed me. She almost ruined my friendship with someone else&if we are ever friends again, I do not know if I will ever be able to trust her. I am taking all of this better than I expected. I mean, I just lost one of the closest people to me. I have other best friends&theyre amazing, but they do not have the past&memories that Caitlin&I share. My other friends&I share our own memories&I would still be upset if I lost one of them, but Caitlin was kinda my solid. Shes the one who I could count on for whatever, NO mattter what. Shes been throught EVERYTHING with me. Now, I have to pretend like I am okay even though I lost one of the closest people to me. This is quite deep for me, yes I know. But, not trying to sound cliche or overdramatic, she was like a sister to me. Yeah, we had our differences&some days I wanted to strangle her, but she was my constant. HAHA. I am making way too big a deal outta this. She prolly does not even care. Shes prolly happy with Matt&when they break up shell try coming back to me. Wait, did I say break up? They are not even going out yet, my badd. Haha, its funny I thought that Caitlin would be one of those friends who I was friends with forever. Like, the kind you see on tevee, where theyve been friends since they were little&grew up together, but I guess not, huh? I don't want sympathy, or for anyone to feel bad because this is my fault&I know it. I just want my best friend back. Haha, I am soo pathetic. I sound like one of those lame girls on tevee, who are wayy too dramatic. I am always too over dramatic. Thats why I am in this mess. I do not know if our friendship is completely over&I really hope not. She said we needed time apart&I actually typed the same exact thing, but did not have the balls to say it because I didnt want to chance loosing her for good. Haha, want to know whats kinda funny? I can name about ten other people I used to be 'best friends' with, but then suddenly we werent. Like I used to go through these so called things as 'best friends' like I go through blueberries. Lets see thurr was: Gina, Jenn, Erica,& prolly a couple more. But Caitlin, she was a constant. She was a true best friend. I really hope that Jaimie&Alyssa are not like Erica&Jenn. I do not want them to be just another friendship that gets thrown away like yesterday. I never realized how important friendship was til today. Its sacred. It can be easily broken&once its broken sometimes it can never be fixed. As the saying goes: You don't know what you got til it's gone. Aiight, well I am done being an overdramatic loserr. :] For anyone who finished this... Thank yah. Cause I probably won't even be able to finish re-reading this. That's how lame it is. :]

-- Mandak, the pathetic.

Miscellaneous.

This blog is about a bunch of things. Seeing as how I have not blogged in FOREVER, well yesterday did not count, I will tell you about my summer. Well right now, I am waiting for my mamacita to return with my Demi Lovato CD&my Greek salad. WAIT, I MUST HAVE SUMMONED HER THROUGH MY BLOG BECAUSE SHES HOME. Haha, she is home&and let me just say that the new Demi Lovato CD is beasttt. Now I am eating Smores&getting them all over my keyboardd. I am kinda no longer in the mood to blog. So I shall tell you all about my summer another time. :]

-- mandak, who is full of smores&salad.

Anger.

Anger. Its an interesting thing. Something thats hard to control if your name is Amanda Kristan Catherine. See, I get angry very easily&then once I am no longer angry&Ive had a chance to calm down I realize how stupid it was to be angry in the first place. I most of the time end up saying things that I later regret&open up uneccessary topics&end up making matters worse. Like today&yesterday for example. See, I have been fighting with one of my best friends. I am just so messed up. Hahah, like seriously. One minute I am mad&then the next I am crying&then the next minute I am happy. Im soo moody. Maybe its cause I am PMSing. Well, my friend has been pissing me off. So one minute ill be furious with her&then the next I do not even remeber why were fighting&then the fight seems soo stupid. Then it repeats itself. I gett pissed again&then realized thurr is not reason for me to pissed. I go through stages of anger.

First:I get extremely pissed&want nothing to do with the person. I completely freak outt.

Second: Then I get so pissed, I start crying.

Third: Once Ive gathered my emotions, I feel fine&think the whole fight is stupid.

I do admit i get mad wayy too easily&I want to start breathing&calming down before I do or say anything because then maybe I can save myself the emotional strain. I prolly sound like a mental patient, but I am almost completely sane, I promise. :] So from now on, its in writing now so I can not go back on, I will go through these steps before I freak out:

First: I will breathhhh.

Second: I will calmly and rationally think about the situation&figure out the best way to approach it.

Third: I will approach it delicately&NOT freak out.

Well, my Tyler Perry's House of Payne marathon is coming on soon, so I will go watch it because that is the BEST show everrr. <333

-- mandak, the angered.

FUCKING BITCHES WHO SHOULD SDKJFLDSJF

okay. so lets define this lil thing called friendship. A friendship is an ultimate bond between two people who are supposed to care about each other and respect them but if one of the people shits all over the friendship what the fuck is left?!?!?!? Oh yeah, NOTHING NADA ZILCH, and a whole lotta anger. So, today my so-called "friend" decides shes going to start shit. So this is how it went down. i told her how some people saw the jo bros and i was all mad because i wanted to see them and she was all like there is nothing really that amazig about them. Now for all of you who dont know i LOVE the jo bros soo much like i suffer from OJD (obsessed jonas disorder). and she knows this and i get that she doesnt like them but i dont sit there and constantly diss the people she likes. so anyway i kinda like laughed it off and then she puts up on away that says "more like the Bogus Brothers" so mandak is all the wtf. who the hell does this bitch think she is dealing with, am i right? so i IMed her and was like you best not be talking about my boys and she didnt answer so i thought hey lets fight away message with away message so i put one up that said ''HATERS NEED TO STOP DRINKING THEIR HATERADE''. and then i come back downstairs after i went to watch tevee and her away message is this ''People need to stop obsessing over the "Jo Bros."They're fucking people.They're not the only ones who play what they call music.Fags.( No offence to Hannah =D )'' like what the fuck. that is a serious dig at me because i love the jo bros and hate the word fag. seriously i want someone to kick her ass so fucking bad right now. so anyway, so i once again posted another away messgae. LOOK, i get it that not everyone has to like them but seriously dont sit theere and bash them infront of me when you know i like them, kay. especially when im your friend like show some fucking respect. it feels better to get it all out, well ima go punch children or punch something.
i would just like to close this by saying if you dont like the jonas brothers keep it to yo self. or if you dont like anything for that matter keep it to yo self.

Peace, and i love JONAS,
-- one super pissed off Mandak

FUCKING BITCHES.

BIG BLOG

okay, so i have not blogged in FOREVER. so i firgured i would make up for it by creating a VERY long blog. i wonder how long this thing will let me type but i guess we are going to find out. Where to start where to start? Okay well i guess we could start with how much i hate computer literacy. yah see for those who dont know, well alyssa since youre porlly the only one reading this, its a very boring class that makes you very very very very sore and my teacher is very very very very mean. OKAY, so tonight is the jonas brothers premerie of their new movie in L.A and these three stupid chicks one this game hting on MTV and get to go to it so im like mad pissed. So i figure right now im going to listen to every single Jonas song i have which is like 29034823904832 songs. Not really, but yall catch my drift. Okay so i get in my car today and my sister was all like some kid called me a pisser today and me and Jaimie were like wtf is that and she was like i really dont know and my mom was like adults use it to describe people who are funny so im think im pisserlicious because i can be quite histarical at times. The Jonas Brothers wrote a song about me its called "Mandy". Im thinking of allowing people to call me that now since there is a JB song about it. So today in American History Yubin made fun of my main man Nick and said that he was gay and since im afraid to hit her i just took it like an untrue fan because im scared of a viscious Korean. :] but i still love Yubababaluba. OKAY, so word to the wise seriously do NOT say the F-A-G-G-O-T word, kay? Cause really its not nice and it can offend people. How would you like it if i called you a name and made fun of you for something you could not help. So really people STUFF IT THEN SHOVE IT. Cause im really sick of it. my friend Caitlin keeps saying it right now to piss me off and im telling her off because guys seriously its not nice, i know im not the nicest person either but i mean come on. ERGH! People really flipping tick me off. So i can no longer curse in my house because everyone seems to think i have a fucking problem with my fucking language and i that i have a fucking shitty poutty mouth. NO CLUE WHAT THEYRE TALKING ABOUT?!?!?! ;] Will i get kicked out for cursing? Sorry to all the i offended. So like i mentioned 50 times before i am going to see the Jonas Brothes New Movie on Saturday instead of friday because my parents hate me. I REALLLLY wanted to go on Friday because thats when number1 fans go but they were like just wait til Saturday so I am. Ahaha so i take aerobics in gym and let me tell you its pretty funny cause no one does it right and its funny to watch. Tomorrow is CRAZY ABS WEDNESDAY. I will now forever and always dread Wednesdays like the plague. Cause supposedly they are like MEGA HARD. Mandak dont like that. and i have it for an hour. So American Idol is NOT on tonight and that really makes me mad because my favorite person on there is Adam Lambert and he ddidnt perform last week so he was supposed to perform today but NO i have to wait til tomorrow. And im not going to be home tomorrow because i have dance so i have to DVR it. So i got reccomended for AP World today and i dont know what to do about this predicament. I mean i kinda want to do it because im good at history but then again i want to have a social life. And i dont want to fail. Ergh! Sucha problemo i must face. So i talked twice today in my debate in Spanish thats pretty good considering i cant debate for my life in English, well depending on the subject, so how the hecksky am I supposed to do it in a foregin lanuguage. Last year we had to do this BIG DRAWN OUT debate for S.S. It was horrible. I had to give a speech and i started hyperventilating and flipping out and it was horrible and i really didnt talk all that much but i still got a good grade. But i will never ever do that again. Hmph, what else is there to talk about. I MISS MY SKIP-IT, But i miss my BOP IT more. Whose with me that those were the two greatest toys ever invented by man kind? So i think i need to go to an AA meeting because i have an addiction. My name is Mandak and I am addicted to Pizza Rolls, like seriously i eat way too many i can eat a whole bag in like 2 days by myself. NO JOKE. DAYUMMM this thing lets you write a whole lot like ive been blogging for 21 minutes so far and theyre really havent been many interruptions. DID I MENTION THAT I AM GOING TO MARRY NICK JONAS?!?!?!? Now i know most people think that but yah seee i really am. I have a master plan and everything but im not going to talk about it because it so good that everyone who reads this, probably only alyssa who i LOVE so much :], will steal it. So, i have radio disney on my t.v and im listening to it and theyre gunna broadcast the red carpet even of my men's movie. Im so PSYCHED, but i probably wont listen to it. WELL, i think im done. BUT i girl scot honor promise that i will start blogging more for all my dedicated fans ***cough cough*** alyssa.hehe

Peace, Love, and Jonas,
--Mandak :]] <333>

TOTALLY KIDDING ONLY REALLY FRUITY PEOPLE SAY "PEACE, LOVE, AND JONAS".