Anger.

Anger. Its an interesting thing. Something thats hard to control if your name is Amanda Kristan Catherine. See, I get angry very easily&then once I am no longer angry&Ive had a chance to calm down I realize how stupid it was to be angry in the first place. I most of the time end up saying things that I later regret&open up uneccessary topics&end up making matters worse. Like today&yesterday for example. See, I have been fighting with one of my best friends. I am just so messed up. Hahah, like seriously. One minute I am mad&then the next I am crying&then the next minute I am happy. Im soo moody. Maybe its cause I am PMSing. Well, my friend has been pissing me off. So one minute ill be furious with her&then the next I do not even remeber why were fighting&then the fight seems soo stupid. Then it repeats itself. I gett pissed again&then realized thurr is not reason for me to pissed. I go through stages of anger.

First:I get extremely pissed&want nothing to do with the person. I completely freak outt.

Second: Then I get so pissed, I start crying.

Third: Once Ive gathered my emotions, I feel fine&think the whole fight is stupid.

I do admit i get mad wayy too easily&I want to start breathing&calming down before I do or say anything because then maybe I can save myself the emotional strain. I prolly sound like a mental patient, but I am almost completely sane, I promise. :] So from now on, its in writing now so I can not go back on, I will go through these steps before I freak out:

First: I will breathhhh.

Second: I will calmly and rationally think about the situation&figure out the best way to approach it.

Third: I will approach it delicately&NOT freak out.

Well, my Tyler Perry's House of Payne marathon is coming on soon, so I will go watch it because that is the BEST show everrr. <333

-- mandak, the angered.